The beans left this bed here. It has all of his monkey toys in it and his blankie and leash.
When they came home and left Grady at bye-byes, I smelled his bed and it smelled funny. I tried to rub my face on it like I do all the smelly stuff outside, so I could figure out what happened to my brudda.
What did you do with my Sissy LaLa?
Everytime I ask the beans where he's at, they tell me he will come home someday, but that Grady is in a better place. Of course, they take him to a better place??! Why can't I be there? I obviously have lots more research to do to find out where this better place is and find out when he's coming back.
Later on, I went and laid next to Grady's bed and toys. I wanted to visit him and thought I'd wait here for when he comes back. They won't let me play with his toys. I guess they are waiting for him to get back too?
Where did he go? And why did he leave me with the beans? Where is this "better place" and can I drive there?
Even Ms Kitty is wondering where he went. She comes out of hiding in the bedroom all the time and goes up to the momma bean and yells, "meeeeeoooooowwwwwwwww!" Which I think in Kitty Speak means...."where is that other doggie?!" I'm pretty sure she's hoping Grady doesn't come back. Or maybe she's asking when it's my turn to leave? That Kitty is EVIL!
OMG! Don't tell me....She's right behind me, isn't she?!!!!!!?!!!!!!
Kitty went up to the bed a couple of times too and sniffed and rubbed her face on it too. I had to go back and make sure she didn't do anything weird to Grady's smell. While I was there, I thought maybe if I bring Grady a toy, he will come back? So, I took one of my toys that he gave me from a trial over to his bed and tried to get him to play with it. But, he wouldn't play. I still don't know where the heck he is! But at this point, I'm wondering if he's ever gonna come home?
Then, I remembered what Grady told me on our walk the day he left. He was going to go away on a very long journey and I had to do alot of things for him. He said it's the most important job ever and only a very special Queen Dumbass like me can handle such tough responsibilities. I'm still not allowed to say what he told me to do, but here's a few samples of the things I have to do....
Keep the corner of the couch warm. This is the Daddy Beans favorite spot and when he's not there, Grady would make sure he kept it warm for when Daddy Bean came back. Now, I am keeping it warm.
Look cute. Still trying to master Grady's monkey face look, but he showed me this move and it seems to work well.
And be sure to look silly too. This one is easy. I can do this one all day. And look...multi-tasking. Keeping the corner warm AND looking silly!
And most importantly, keep the snuggle spot on the Momma Bean nice and warm... He used to lay here every night before bed. I don't mind doing it now. I also have to keep her warm at nite-nites. She must get cold very easily.
But, even though I still have lots more to do, I do still miss that Sissy LaLa.
The beans took me out the other day. We took the Momma Bean out for her favorite yummies...frozen yogurt....and I got to go with them and visit with other peoples that were there. It felt good to get out of the house. I think the Beans thought so too.
Then yesterday, it was some day called
It was so much fun makin friends, but boy is that exhausting.
Even though LaLa is gone, and I don't think he's coming back, I'm starting to get back to my normal self again. This morning, things felt a little different. Like, I knew he wasn't coming back and knew he's not hurting no mores and like I felt ok with it.
I wasn't eating the past couple of days. Not how I normally eat. I was worried that Grady might come home and be hungry, so I'd take a bite of my din-dins and drop some in the living room for me to eat, but would leave the rest of the din-dins in my bowl, just in case he was hungry when he came back. But, after a lil bit, I realized I was hungry and he wasn't here, so I'd eat it and promised I'd save the next din-dins for him later. Well, after a few days of trying to leave him din-dins, this morning I decided to eat it all by myself. And boy, it was YUMMY!!!
And sure enough, just as I stop leaving him some of my din-dins, he did finally come home today. But, it was weird....he was in a box. It smelled funny. It still smelled like Grady, but just had a really different smell to it and I wasn't sure what it was.
The beans told me that he was coming home today. I was soooo excited, that I barked, I looked out the window and I grabbed my toys - getting them ready for him to play with when he gets here. But when they showed me the box I thought, "how'd he get in there? Let him out NOW!! We's gotta play!!!" I tried to rescue him out of there. I tried to lick the box alot and all over and tried to nibble on the corner to see if I could set him free. But the beans made me stop. They said he's already been set free?
Maybe they want him to stay in that box? Maybe they want ME to start gettin all the attentions again? Either way, I must admit,......I'm (kinda) happy he's home. I do miss his smell. I still have a long list of stuffs he told me to do, so I know I am a busy girl from now on.
This is the start of a new adventure for me, but I know not to be sad anymore. I'm getting extra attentions, extra snacks, and extra space on the bed. Grady did say it's my job to make sure the beans don't miss him anymore. He told me to make sure they knew that he was lucky to have them to take care of him. He said of all the stuff to do on my list, I have to make sure that they knew he loved them just as much as they loved him. It's a tough job, but someone has to do it.
Grady told me many things on our walk that day and I'm trying to remember them all. It's a long list, but I know I'm the ONLIEST special Queen Dumbass that can do this job for him. But, gee....truth is....guess I still miss him too.